Kiara Valenzuela

Today was just a WOW day…

The things the things that has happened today, from the moment I woke up.. First I burnt the right side of my face with a curling iron [It decided to not grip my hair but instead my face] I have a beautiful burn mark now, awesome.. I watch a bus get stuck on the corner of st. James due to my boss’s BMW being parked on the corner and people searching, pissed off looking for the owner of the car haha. Some of the people that came into Tico tonight- speechless. I have been texting my friend Gabby from work for the past day and a half, so I thought!.. Tonight I come to find out I was texting some Jody chick (no idea who she is) who has a boyfriend and are trying to meet up with me. To do some things I just do not agree with.. Creeeeppppy and disgusting!! Let me just add they both send my photos of themselves to see if I thought that would convince me to hang out. FAIL! Well that was my day!! Making some food, packing, work in the morning then Scranton bound for the week

Uphill.Downhill.

I was having a good productive day to myself. Bayside put me in a good mood and talking to a friend from back home. Than BAM, I start to talk to my oldest brother who I have no spoken to in over three years. We talk about our “Father” and my whole attitude/mood is crushed I am beyond angry.

But how I want to waste no time/emotions on him. How he is not worth it. F!@#$%^&*…

I am in SUCH a good mood and even though I do not have Bayside’s new CD [Killing Time:Hint hint, someone buy it for me<3] I am listening to it online and as usual it’s absolutely great. On top of that, I found out that on April 22nd they are going to be in Boston [@Paradise]. Enough said<3

Today’s weather is horrible and I don’t have work until Friday so I am feeling really lazy but hey Monday/Tuesday I will be going to Scranton for the week, smiles:)

Happy Monday Everyone.

This is when I should be silence…

  The things I’d like to say but silent I will be. BUT I am going to waste my time before I watch a film to write this mini-true but blunt post..

  Point blank I am glad I am out of the area I grown to dislike even more [ Even though I am not even living there anymore and I removed myself from the scene I am speaking upon wayyyyyyy before I moved.. If you actually knew me you would have known that.

By the way CONGRATS: 3 months living in Boston Kiki whoop whoop haha]. Getting off topic already…

Anyway. The same pointless, nonsense things I see on Facebook (which I fall into those categories sometimes but that’s besides the point) makes me giggle.

  Hmmm either the city of Scranton is extremely smaller than I remembered or it’s just the fact that literally everyone does the same thing repeatedly?? That of course I have noticed for quite a while now [more like two years haha]. People [awesome or not ideally my kind of person] I would have honestly never pictured hanging or being “tight” [quoted for a reason:P] friends [which I am not against it but said to prove a point…. which you most likely would not understand unless you were me, which you are not or understood this statement/opinion without having a conversation about it with me]. I guess it’s because everyone turned or are now turning 21 that I went to MS/HS with and being away for some odd reason had me notice it even more. Of course it’s ultimately because “Scrantonians” all they do is drink [not exaggerating and if you live in Scranton and disagree you are lying to yourself unless you are one of the few people who have a greater picture then the rest of them] but now it’s not just at the known U spots, woods, “cool friends” houses as much as it’s at the same few bars/clubs.. Eek!!!!!!

More than enough time wasted on this POINTLESS (hypocrite? ha) is going nowhere post. ( The things I should not waste my time on but I do here and there, not for joy because I don’t get joy out of it but just to write my thoughts down somewhere anywhere takes my mind off something else..) Debated on deleting this post but what the heck I’ll post it I am sure very few people will read this and if you do read it. These are MY thoughts, MY opinions so if you do not agree keep the negative comments to yourself please, this is not written to get on anyone’s bad side…

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  The other day I was told I seemed really “happy” because I continuously smiled, I was talkative, I spoke with confidence, etc. It was quite interesting to hear because if these bostonians have seen/known me a few months ago I was different. I did not look as I was described (“happy”, smiling at all times for no reason, nor had passion behind the words I spoke) I guess you can say I was soulless, (as an important person had told me before and I completely agreed with the statement) Before I was lost, had no idea what I was doing nor wanted. Taking this step, moving on to a new chapter in my life was the best decision I have made. I have realized a lot, even though it only has been three months I am comfortable and really getting joy out things I wasn’t before. Just moving out of Scranton period took me out of my misery because to be completely honest I literally dislike living there..  I realized multiple times for about less than a year that I was doing the same NOTHING, POINTLESS (I can go on forever) things over and over, I was stuck in this hole and If I didn’t make a change I would have had to accept something less of what I really wanted and that I could not allo. I miss my family in Scranton but at this point I have to do what I want and I believe they understand that.

:) Just a little vent.

  The other day I was told I seemed really “happy” because I continuously smiled, I was talkative, I spoke with confidence, etc. It was quite interesting to hear because if these bostonians have seen/known me a few months ago I was different. I did not look as I was described (“happy”, smiling at all times for no reason, nor had passion behind the words I spoke) I guess you can say I was soulless, (as an important person had told me before and I completely agreed with the statement) Before I was lost, had no idea what I was doing nor wanted. Taking this step, moving on to a new chapter in my life was the best decision I have made. I have realized a lot, even though it only has been three months I am comfortable and really getting joy out things I wasn’t before. Just moving out of Scranton period took me out of my misery because to be completely honest I literally dislike living there..  I realized multiple times for about less than a year that I was doing the same NOTHING, POINTLESS (I can go on forever) things over and over, I was stuck in this hole and If I didn’t make a change I would have had to accept something less of what I really wanted and that I could not allo. I miss my family in Scranton but at this point I have to do what I want and I believe they understand that.

I have a long way to go and a lot to learn but as do everyone else.

Quick vent. Time to work out and go to work until 9 tonight.

Female Chauvinist Pigs: Women and the Rise of Raunch Culture Time.

A book recommended/lent to me by Sofya and I am very intrigued to read it:D Well first I need to help shovel Carly’s car out and go food shopping THEN I am reading until I pass out

Female Chauvinist Pigs: Women and the Rise of Raunch Culture Time.

A book recommended/lent to me by Sofya and I am very intrigued to read it:D Well first I need to help shovel Carly’s car out and go food shopping THEN I am reading until I pass out.

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I tried to read the Boston Globe/Cnn online Newspapers but I could not focus and my brain can NOT handle anymore information today. It’s loaded with information from Tico training, thinking, not so much Phillipostyle training (it’s only been two days but just a little) This headache is outrageous right now haha.

Making some cookies & cream pudding then watching a few films. Feeling good, a little tired but a cup of coffee and a work out can fix that;]

Tuesday I find out if my “father’s” words he spoke are true or not. I don’t want to get excited because all he has been all my life was a let-down and a liar. Not sure if thinking a person can change and be better at any giving time is my weakness but I try to be positive and give chances after chances I guess. Especially towards close-friends/Family.

I feel as I should be thinking that things are looking better but until I speak to my Mother/Father on Tuesday, that’s when my thoughts will be clear. We shall see.

CELLPHONE/Technology

My phone was shut off a week or so ago, still turned off. Not saying that is a long time but thinking about how attached to my phone I use to be months ago. How much I rely on my phone lately (especially being in a new area trying to get from point A to point B) Letting anything and everything be told/explained to me instead of finding it myself, doing the extra work to get the same results.

I have been thinking about just not having a cellphone but then I realize.. What if something happened and I needed to get in touch with someone, vice versa. Also how the whole world depend and interact with others via cellphones. Let’s just say If I could choose to not have a phone, be old school about talking to family, friends, managers and other employees, getting directions/news updates I would.

Ultimately I am extremely proud of myself. I don’t feel the need to be attached to my phone checking facebook, texting people alllll day long, not being attentive to what is in front of me/the scenery. Basically always looking down instead of up. Having my face paste to my screen regardless of where I am/doing.

Okay that’s the end of that. Enjoying some wine with the roommate. With our macs on the kitchen table and some tunes on.